snand in the place where you work – Page 3

I’m gonna embrace this.

had a pretty good day. work is a bright spot for me right now, getting on my feet, enjoying myself and work with a lot of great people. I nearly lost it the other day but they were there for me and it’s nice starting the new year feeling good about something.

made a final decision today that feels really good.

finally getting on my feet.

been beating around the bush a bit lately, I know but I’ve been struggling with work.

I started this new job immediately after my traumatic brain injury, after a traumatic employment situation with a very toxic employer. my new position started off great, people are nice, organization is put together in the right ways, felt so mature and organized.

Months went by and I kept looking to fill the role, to match my skills and experience with the opening. I could not do it, I could not find my footing and so I got to the point where I felt like I had failed. I got to the point where I looked for new jobs, something that I said would be more of a match to the skills I have. I got to the point of accepting (verbally) a new position…

offer in mid, I finally had the courage and spilled my guts to my employer. I fully expected them to tell me that I was right, that my skills just weren’t a match for what they were looking for. I was ok with this since I had a pending offer on the way so what did I have to lose.

I think you can all see where I went wrong. instead, I should have addressed the issue with my employer first because the reaction I got was 100% in the opposite direction of what I expected. They agreed that they have not done enough to get my involved, that my performance so far had been great and so I deserved more responsibilities. in fact, they had been purposfully keeping more responsibilities from me so as not to overwhelm me.

it’s been a few weeks, and I’m now at the point where it’s completely turned around. I now kinda love, and am excited about the future here. I’m on my feet and maybe not quite running, but I’m at least power walking in these colorful shoes.

I’m going to try to be more active here on snand, let this be the post that marks my return, even using an actual photo instead of some garbage I found online.

thanks snanders, having this dumb site has been a marvelous hobby.

update-

engagement baby, what I’ve been after. I’m reading through a teams channel with countless links to our repo. finally getting the info I’ve been craving here for ages.

that is all.

no, no, not for this site, snand shall endure. it will become clear over the next few weeks.

lunch was delayed on thursday.

I meant to post this on the day it happened but I work, and have kids, and a lot of bills, and a house to take care of, and am still recovering from my accident, and I’m battling depression, and there’s at least 10 million more important things than complaining about sysco.

still, was annoying.

work.

I recently started a new job, one that’s a big change from what I’ve been doing for the last 20+ years. previously my roles have been very technical, I haven’t been hands on for a while but running teams that are solving bottom up technical challenges. now, I’m an individual contributor in a thought leadership role. this has been a long goal of mine and I am beyond the moon to have this opportunity; but it’s quite an adjustment.

It’s been a little over 2 months now, I love it so far but I cannot remember a time when I felt like I had to work so hard just to tread water. this is mostly self inflicted, I mean, 2 months in, I’m not expected to be saving the world but the lack of confidence is beginning to hold me back.

today is a new day though, and each one is. It’s been a good day so far, I’m feeling more confident than ever, and that’s despite blowing a meeting yesterday. I was so nervous about the day that I threw up this morning, but still, I pushed through and here I am now, sitting on the john and the day is going so well I had to make a post.

it’s a good day, and it’s going to get better.