snand in the place where you work – Page 2

it really is..

this was the third attempt, the prompt was: “oh, come on. you got the aesthetic but once again it’s a, fake transparent background. I thought you said you could generate a .png…”

this started as work, I swear. I needed a quick and dirty httpd server for testing a little mdm fix for work. so, I hacked up a compose file and put it online on my test url. I got sick of looking at an empty directory listing though and so I wanted to at least put a static banner of some sort. one thing led to another though and I basically recreated my very first website from the 1990’s, but this time using enough energy to burn down a forest. every single byte of that site was generated completely by ChatGPT.

more art I think. I mean, the first time I built this page, it was on a 486, I uploaded it over my 14.4k modem to the worlds worst ISP (seriously, I worked there, it ended with the cops being called and a lawsuit). this time, I can’t even imagine all the technology that led up to it’s creation. I honestly think it might be the single biggest waste of resources in human history.

every couple years..

..I swear I read this same article:

https://www.theregister.com/2024/09/04/cloud_buyers_regret/

I’m an infrastructure architect. I don’t care where my infrastructure lives, I’m a requirements driven person. cloud is just someone elses computer.

flexibility, rapid deployment, wide open development landscape, etc. I get why the cloud is there but it’s a tool, like any other. no idea why I’m posting this, guess I just am tired of reading the same thing, showing it to the same people, and getting the same results.

back to work..

I thought it was going to be worse, last week I was kind of a wreck, being gone for All IT Week. I mean, Many Point was wonderful but it did keep my PTSD anxiety working overtime, so, really thought it would just be a ball of nerves at work, but catchup took so much time that I didn’t have a chance to panic. plus I managed to have a fairly productive day.

still, given the stress levels of the two trips I’ve taken this year, I don’t feel like I’ve had any time to relax. maybe the state fair will finally shut off my brain.

I just figured out business

business is where no matter what decision you make, someone will tell you how it’s the wrong one, immediately before or after someone else thanks you for finally doing the right thing.

business is weird.

I’m the same person I’ve always been. during covid though, I felt it was important to keep my camera on in remote meetings because I have always felt that communication is more than just verbal. I tend to share a lot of my feelings through facial expressions and gestures.

but there’s another side effect, somehow just being on camera lends me more authority and so since it’s on by default, I wind up leading a lot of meetings that I otherwise have little to do with. I don’t mind, I’m glad I’m seen as an authority, but this is just one of those funny little business ticks that I can’t help but notice.

I can’t tell if it’s always been this way but one thing is for certain, confidence matters, and maybe keeping my camera on is showing some.

now, If I could just get over my nerves in person because I have a presentation to give. putting this out there more for me than any snanders, but feel free to use this advice.

well this comes as no surprise…

…https://www.theregister.com/2024/06/05/agile_failure_rates/?td=rt-3a

now, take this with a grain of salt because the study authors are pushing their own, new framework. I can’t say I’m the least bit surprised though.

I can hear them now, the agile purists telling me that I just haven’t seen agile done right. agile, waterfall, kanban, etc. can all work, the thing that is always missed is the need for requirements up front. I know we can get working without them, but what are we working towards without them?

in the end, I can get to work in any framework, so long as I understand what we’re building.

posting from 33,000 feet

snand has taken to the sky. ok, not really, I just think it’s kinda cool that I’m on an airplane, posting from my phone, to my website, that runs in my basement.

well, pretty much confirms how much of a nerd I am 🤓

update- well this was a hell of an article to read while high (get it).

update2 – ha, there’s just something that makes me feel good about seeing my phone image backup from midair (I run my own immich instance). simply astonishing what is possible these days.

friday affirmation post.

it’s been a decent week, for my head anyway. I still bounce around wildly between panic and tranquility, sometimes in the same day. but this has been a good week for me in how I’m feeling professionally.

I’m pretty knowledgeable about a lot of things, I know what to do. I just don’t really know how to get these needed projects underway. I’ve been blaming myself for being inadequate at my job but this week I’ve been getting some of the needed direction and some coworkers are coming out of the woodwork to talk about their frustrations as well. I’m not complaining about work, frankly I LOVE working where I do, it’s without a doubt the best company I have ever worked for, but just because it’s a good place to work, doesn’t mean there isn’t difficulties here. I’m used to a different set of them though and so recalibration has been a challenge.

nothing particularly tangible I’m reacting to here, but it feels good that I’m not blaming myself for all my frustrations. and I do know that this just means that there’s still more work to do and more frustrations ahead of me but I don’t feel quite as alone anymore.

thanks work and co-workers for a good week. I’m so happy to be here to face these challenges as a team.

today’s old favorite

2 albums of perfection

this song comes up occasionally in my playlist and every time I remember how much I love it. then I remember how much I love Handsome Boy Modeling School and I listen to both albums for days.

now you do the same. or not, you do you.

update- didn’t follow the usual plan and next up is:

gonna be a good day

apple music, what are you doing to me? what is this, nostolgia day?

I’m back in my bedroom, watching northern exposure on my black and white TV.

wfo

I support and believe in work from home and a hybrid workforce, but it’s not for me. it is simply astonishing the difference in my mental health, engagement, etc. when I’m in the office vs. at home. I’m a office guy, I know that makes me weird but when you are this old it’s better to know what you need…